Who is she?

She likes smell of fresh cut grass apple orchards any beach good food animals sunrises over the mountains certain people loosing myself in a museum a single tree in the distance books God full moons pretty things morals being tan happy times learning a good salad bubbles historical anything sunsets at the beach prom hair smell inside an old book songs that touch my soul gardenias ocean breezes spoken word poetry civil liberty hawaiian tropic good deeds NE football warm sunshine on my face well written acted directed movies fresh flowers feeling pretty

She dislikes sound of chewing liars banned books propaganda traffic ignorant people fast food hurters of children/animals ebonics slapstick rubberneckers figurative/literal coldness fox news video games bad food meetings evil bad grammar mean people NY Giants violence mindfucks Mexican candy smell of mold war crimes too much rain unsensored stop lights lack of common sense hatred scared children San Diego sports teams gps the media machine

She misses my mom trees pizza backyards seafood market basket nantucket my cat parish cafe cranes beach fireplace on a cold night kate spade on newbury cheese steak subs renting beach houses Marshalls on Boylston St best friend Vermont my mom being 5 the smell of Boston city streets after a warm weather downpour santarpios having a brother 80s hair NYC hello kiss kiss my mom greek pizza places homecooked meals my cat color popping fall trees ski weekends house phones darkest nights connection to the past impromptu plans with a BFF steve's greek maps Cape cod

She doesnt miss cold weather dunkin donuts cold weather white trash family drama salt on my shoes the southie accent having strangers at
stores tell me they know me thru my third cousin once removed unprotected left turns
shoveling drunk red sox fans traffic that doesn't move

She is Grateful for: my mom my dog my cat my friends my intelligence anti depressants San Diego weather God my humor my smile my wit my memory my sense of style my common sense my therapist 

I am a good girl both a delightful yet at times dark strong woman with an interesting not ordinary mind who spent a significant amount of time denying myself what I truly craved most, a simple quiet life. I am finally learning to give myself a break I'm no longer trying so hard. I am trying to be a quitter of things that do not move me forward.