My dog means the world to me

Absolutely dying right now. Gert is having lab work done after I had to bring her to the emergency vet. She kind of fell/rolled off the couch and then started drunk/wobbly walking barely though and she was taking slow shallow breathes. My head was screaming omg no why is this really happening? I scooped her up ran/walked fast to the jeep, 90 mph on the 8, Taylor circle, screaming head why why why park at vet ER carry her inside tears streaming downy face omg why is this happening tech comes right up quick recap they take her away cold grey doors swing tick tick they make a noise people are talking around me my head is screaming why why please Jesus Christ Jesus filing Christ please make her ok why why why stupid asshole people to my left laughing stop talking Spanish assholes can't you see me here crying hot tears vining my cheeks cannot breathe for real heart aching please please pleAse make my baby ok dying why aren't they coming out what the fuck is wrong something must bs wrong they won't look at me tears streaming down my face pleAse please please make her ok i love her so much she isy best friend door swings dog with iv comes out happy you're ok buddy but where's gert where is my baby girl is she ok god is she ok please please pleAse make her ok

Fuck.